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साहित्य सर्जकको साङ्केतिक चित्र A symbolic image of a writer creating literature

Salutations to Creators who Cultivate Literature from Thoughts

The Planting of Thought

The movie Inception is about the planting of an “idea”—a thought. In it, a team enters someone’s dream and plants an idea in their mind, which then spreads like a virus. Interestingly, the person thinks the idea is their own. They believe no one but them could have thought it.

Likewise, our thoughts don’t come entirely from within either. For most people, personal struggles, society, the stories we see, hear, or read, and even fantasies plant various types of thoughts. For instance, I had a horrific news had inspired me to write I am the Devil. Meanwhile, the setting and the climax of What’s the Point? were based on my dream. Thoughts and ideas that enter the minds of writers grow in such a way that they cause unrest until they are written or turned into something. Yet, no matter how compelling the thoughts may be, most don’t become literature. Even prolific writers don’t write down everything that comes to mind.

Why Don’t All Thoughts Become Literature? What Blocks Them?

Both the individual and their society can become obstacles in literary creation. Most people don’t set aside time to write. When distracted by other work, unrecorded thoughts vanish, and the urge to write fades. Some people feel too lazy to write.

Society is also changing rapidly. What’s considered acceptable today may be deemed wrong tomorrow. In this way, some thoughts become irrelevant. Due to changes in perspective, writers often refrain from writing about old ideas.

Writer’s Block

The hardest part of writing is simply “getting started.” One of the most common problems faced by writers—especially those working on large literary projects—is writer’s block. This is a state in which, despite a strong desire to write, the writer is unable to do so. It can hit at any point—before beginning or midway through writing.

Recently, Paathshala writer Tirtha Gurung tweeted about experiencing this. George R. R. Martin, whose books were adapted into the hit series Game of Thrones, has long struggled to finish the final volumes.

Causes of writer’s block include:

  1. Fear of not being able to write as envisioned (the perfectionist trap).
  2. Doubt about completing the work.
  3. Fear of rejection in new writers; fear of disappointing fans in established ones.
  4. Emotional resistance when trying to articulate unspoken thoughts.
  5. The writer’s financial, social, or mental state.

How to Overcome Writer’s Block

In a conversation, George R. R. Martin, known as a perfectionist, asked Stephen King, “How do you write so much so quickly?” King’s simple but powerful reply was, “I write every day.”

King follows a rule: write at least six pages (2,000 words) daily—without worrying whether it’s good or bad. After completing the first draft of a novel, he lets it rest for a month and a half. During that time, he travels or writes something else. Then, he returns to revise the earlier draft.

King’s habits offer useful tips:

  1. Write regularly.
  2. Put thoughts on paper, no matter how they come out.
  3. Edit and revise later.

There’s a saying: “If nothing is written, there’s nothing to revise.” Of course, this is easier said than done.

In the Japanese animated film Whisper of the Heart, Shizuku dreams of becoming a writer. An elderly man named Nishi gives her a stone embedded with an emerald. After reading her first draft, he says, “You’ve mined a raw stone with effort. To polish it into a gem, you still need to work very hard.”

Original or Imitation?

Getting a literary work published professionally isn’t easy. Editors provide feedback on everything from spelling to plot structure. Writers go through multiple rewrites.

I once saw a photo on author Buddhisagar’s Facebook page of a huge stack of Karnali Blues drafts. Gabriel García Márquez’s first draft of One Hundred Years of Solitude was reportedly very different from the final book.

Reading such polished masterpieces can inspire new writers—but it can also be discouraging. Why?

  1. It makes them feel their ideas aren’t original.
  2. Our taste often evolves faster than our skill.

They say that nothing in this world is truly “original.” But that doesn’t mean new ideas can’t emerge. And if originality isn’t possible, imitation is a fallback.

But caution is needed. In art and literature, there’s an old rule:

“Imitating one person is plagiarism. Imitating a hundred is art.”
And another:
“Imitate so well that no one realises it’s imitation.”

The Path of a Writer

In Whisper of the Heart, when Shizuku says she wants to be a writer, her father replies:

“You’ve chosen a rare and difficult path. You’ll have to take responsibility for it yourself.”

Most writers’ lives aren’t easy. Internal conflict, family discord, social pressures from having different perspectives, and financial struggles are common.

Many writers have very few friends. Some brilliant authors have suffered from depression. The events surrounding the suicide of Bhairav Aryal, Nepal’s king of satirical literature, are heartbreaking. So too are the mental torments of Ryunosuke Akutagawa, the father of Japanese short stories.

After enduring inner turmoil, self-doubt, and numerous struggles, writers finally present their thoughts to readers. Only a few find financial success. Some readers don’t appreciate the ideas or their presentation. Sometimes, readers fail to even grasp the writer’s thinking. Some expect writers to express only the kinds of ideas they personally prefer. In extreme cases, books are torn or even burned by readers. Such acts are painful to see and hear about.

Of course, not everything written is good. Some books are written purely to spread propaganda or hatred. To expose such works, one must still read them.

Final Words

Salutations to all the writers who, without worrying much about success or failure, endure countless struggles and illuminate the world with the light of their thoughts!

(You can read the Nepali version of the article here.)

साहित्य सर्जकको साङ्केतिक चित्र A symbolic image of a writer creating literature

सोचबाट साहित्य उमार्ने सर्जकहरूको नाममा

सोचको वीजारोपण

चलचित्र “इन्सेप्सन” ‘आइडिया’ अर्थात् सोचको वीजारोपणको कथा हो । यसमा एउटा समूह आफ्नो ‘टार्गेट’को सपनामा गएर उसको दिमागमा कुनै सोच राखिदिन्छन्, जुन ‘भाइरस’ सरी फैलिन्छ । रमाइलो कुरा के भने त्यो मानिसलाई त्यो सोच आफैँ आएजस्तो लाग्छ । ऊ ठान्छ, त्यस्तो सोच ऊ आफूले बाहेक अरूले सोच्न सक्दैन ।

हाम्रो सोचहरू पनि आफैँ आउँदैनन् । अधिकांश मानिसलाई व्यक्तिगत संघर्ष, समाज, देखे, सुनेका अनि पढेका कथा र स्वैरकल्पनाले किसिसकिसिमका सोचको विजारोपण गरिदिन्छन् । जस्तो कि एउटा समाचारबाट प्रेरित भएर मैले आई एम द डेभिल लेखेको थिएँ भने ह्वाट्स द पोइन्टको परिदृश्य र क्लाइमेक्स सपनामा देखेको थिएँ । यसरी आउने सोचहरूले सर्जकहरूको मस्तिष्कमा चैँ ती सोच यसरी बढ्छन् कि त्यसको बारेमा केही नलेखेसम्म नबनाएसम्म छटपटी भइरहन्छ । तर जति नै छटपटी भए पनि धेरै सोचहरू अक्षरमा परिवर्तन हुँदैनन् । धेरै लेख्ने साहित्यकारहरू पनि मनमा आएका सबै कुरा लेख्दैनन् ।

किन बन्दैनन् सबै सोचहरू साहित्य ? केले छेक्छ?

मानिस आफैँ र उसको समाज पनि साहित्य सिर्जनामा बाधक हुन सक्छन् । अधिकांशले लेख्ने समय छुट्याउन सक्दैनन् । विभिन्न काममा अल्मलिँदा नलेखिएको सोच आफैँ हराएर जान्छ । लेख्न पनि मन लाग्न छोड्छ । कतिपय लेख्न अल्छी गर्छन् । समाज पनि एकदम छिटो परिवर्तित भइरहेको छ । आजका सामाजिक मान्यता भोलि गलत हुन सक्छन् । यसरी कतिपय सोचहरू असान्दर्भिक भइदिन्छन् अनि दृष्टिकोणमा आएको परिवर्तनका कारण पुरानो सोचका बारेमा प्राय: लेख्दैनन् ।

राइटर्स ब्लक

साहित्य सिर्जनाको सबैभन्दा गाह्रो काम “लेख्न थाल्नु हो” । लेखकहरूलाई, अझ ठूला आकारका साहित्य सिर्जना गर्ने साहित्यकारहरूलाई एकदमै सताउने एउटा समस्या हो ‘राइटर्स ब्लक’ । त्यस्तो अवस्था हो, जब मनमा लेख्ने हुटहुटी भइरहँदा पनि लेखकहरू केही लेख्न सक्दैन् । लेख्न थाल्दा वा बीचमा, कुनै पनि बेला यो समस्या आउन सक्छ । “पाठशाला”का सर्जक तीर्थ गुरुङले हालै यो समस्या आएको ट्विट गर्नुभएको थियो । जर्ज आर. आर. मार्टिन, जसको पुस्तकहरूको आधारमा सफल सिरिज बन्यो, अन्तिम पुस्तकहरू लेख्न संघर्ष गरिरहनुभएको छ । ‘राइटर्स ब्लक’ केही कारणहरू छन् :

१. सोचेजस्तो लेख्न सकिनँ/सक्दिनँ कि भन्ने डर । (पर्फेक्सनको चाहना ।)

२. पूरै लेख्न सक्दिनँ कि भन्ने शंका ।

३. नयाँ साधकलाई ‘रिजेक्सन’को डर । स्थापित साधकमाथि प्रशंसकको अपेक्षा ।                

३. खुलेर नबोलेका कुराहरूलाई लेखनमा ढाल्न खोज्न उत्पन्न संवेदना ।

४. लेखकको आर्थिक-सामाजिक-मानसिक अवस्था ।

‘राइटर्स ब्लक’ हटाउने उपायहरू

स्टेफेन किंगसँगको एउटा संवादका क्रममा ‘पर्फेर्क्सनिस्ट’ भनेर चिनिइनुहुने जर्ज आर. आर. मार्टिन सोध्नुहुन्छ, “तपाईं छोटो समयमा यति धेरै कसरी लेख्नुहुन्छ ?” किंगको साधारण तर महत्त्वपूर्ण जवाफ आउँछ, “म सधैँ दिनको छ पाना लेख्छु ।”

किंगको एउटा नियम रहेछ, हरेक दिन कम्तीमा छ पाना (२००० शब्द )लेख्ने । त्यसलाई राम्रो नराम्रोको कसीमा नराख्ने । कुनै उपन्यासको पहिलो ‘ड्राफ्ट’ तयार भएपछि डेढ महिना त्यसलाई थन्काउने । कतै घुम्न जाने या अरू नै केही लेख्ने । अनि डेढ महिनाअघिको सिर्जनालाई परिमार्जन गर्ने । किंगको नियमले ‘राइटर्स ब्लक’ हटाउने उपायहरू दिन्छन् :

१. नियमित लेख्ने ।

२. जस्तो भए पनि सोचलाई कागजमा उतार्ने ।

३. लेखिसकेको चीजलाई पछि सम्पादन/परिमार्जन गर्ने ।

“केही लेखेकै छैन भने केही परिमार्जन गर्न सकिन्न” भनिन्छ । यो काम त्यति सजिलो भने छैन । जापानी ‘एनिमेटेड’ चलचित्र “विस्पर अफ द हार्ट”मा साहित्यकार बन्ने सपना देख्ने शिजुकुलाई हजुरबुबा निशीले एउटा ढुंगा दिन्छ । त्यो ढुंगा भित्र एमराल्ड (हरियो रङ्गको महँगो मणि) च्यापिएको छ । शिजुकुको पहिलो ‘ड्राफ्ट’ पढिसकेपछि निशीले भन्छ, “तिमीले मिहिनेतसँग यो कथा लेखेर यस्तै पत्थर उत्खनन् गर्यौ । यसलाई ‘पोलिस’ गरेर बहुमुल्य मणि निकाल्न तिमीले अझै धेरै मिहिनेत गर्नुपर्छ ।”

नयाँ कि नक्कल ?

व्यावसायिक रूपमा कुनै पनि साहित्यिक कृति प्रकाशन गर्न सजिलो छैन । सम्पादकहरूले हिज्जे शुद्धिकरणदेखि कथानकको बनावटसम्मका विषयमा टिप्पणी गर्छन् । अनेकौं पटक पुनर्लेखन गर्छन् लेखकहरू । बुद्धिसागरको “कर्नाली ब्लुज”का ड्राफ्टहरूको अग्लो चांग धेरै अघि उहाँको फेसबुक पेजमा देखेको थिएँ । ग्याब्रियल गार्सिया मार्खेजको “वन हन्ड्रेड इयर्स अफ सोलिट्युड”को पहिलो ‘ड्राफ्ट’ एकदमै फरक थियो रे । यसरी परिस्कृत भएर आएका उत्कृष्ट किताबहरू पढ्दा नयाँ साहित्यकारहरूलाई उत्प्रेरणा मिल्छ । तर कतिपयलाई भने लेख्न झनै गाह्रो पनि बनाइदिन्छ । किनभने:

१. सोच नयाँ रहेनछ ।

२. स्वाद जति छिटो विकसित हुन्छ, कला त्यति छिटो हुँदैन ।

भनिन्छ, संसारमा ‘ओरिजिनल’ केही पनि छैन । तथापि नयाँ सोचहरू आउँदै नआउने चाहीँ होइन । नयाँ गर्न सकिएन भने उपाय छ—नक्कल गर्नु । यसमा साधकले सावधान हुन भने निकै जरुरी छ । कला/साहित्यमा नक्कलको एउटा मूलमन्त्र हो : “एकजनाको नक्कल गर्नु चोरी हो, सयजनाको नक्कल गर्नु चाहिँ कला ।” अर्को : “नक्कल यति राम्ररी गर्नु कि नक्कल गरेको थाहै नहोस् ।”

साहित्यकारको बाटो

“विस्पर अफ द हार्ट”मै शिजुकुले लेखक बन्छु भन्दा उसको पिताले भन्छन्, “तिमीले कमैले लिने फरक बाटो रोज्यौ । यसको जिम्मेवारी तिमी आफैँले लिनुपर्छ ।” प्राय: साहित्यकारहरूको जीवन सरल हुँदैन, आफ्नै मनमा हुने अन्तरद्वन्द्व, पारिवारिक बेमेल, फरक सोच भएका कारण समाजले गर्ने अपेक्षा र द्वन्द्व, आर्थिक समस्या आदिले गर्दा । धेरैजसो साहित्यकारका एकदमै थोरै मित्र हुन्छन् । कतिपय उत्कृष्ट लेखकहरू डिप्रेसनको शिकार भएका उदाहरण छन् । नेपाली हास्यव्यंग्य साहित्यका सम्राट भैरव अर्यालका आत्महत्या वरिपरिका घटनाक्रमले मर्माहत बनाउँछ । त्यस्तै, जापानी छोटा कथाका पिता आकुतागावाका मानसिक छटपटीका कथाहरू एकदमै पीडादायी छन् ।

अन्तरद्वन्द्व, आत्मसंदेह अनि विभिन्न संघर्ष पछि साहित्य साधकले आफ्नो सोच पाठकसामू पस्किन्छन् । कमै मात्रै साहित्यकारले आर्थिक रूपमा सफलता पाउँछन् । कतिपय सोच र सोचको प्रस्तुति पाठक/स्रोतालाई चित्त बुझ्दैन । कहिलेकाहिँ त पाठकले साहित्यकारको सोचसम्म पुग्नै सक्दैनन् । कतिपय पाठकले आफ्नो रुचि र विचार अनुसारको साहित्यकारले रचोस् भन्ने पनि चाहन्छन् । कुनैकुनै पुस्तक त पाठकले नै च्यात्छन्, जलाउँछन् । यस्तो देख्दा, सुन्दा चाहिँ मन चसक्क दुख्छ । त्यसो त लेखिएका सबै कुरा राम्रा हुन्छन् भन्ने छैन । ‘प्रोपगान्डा’ र द्वेष फैलाउने उद्देश्य राखेर पनि पुस्तकहरू लेखिन्छन् । यस्ता पुस्तकहरूको भण्डाफोर गर्न पनि ती पुस्तक पढ्नु पर्ने हुन्छ ।

सफलता, असफलतालाई खासै महत्त्व नदिएर, अनेकौं दु:ख पार गरेर आफ्नो सोचको सूर्यबाट विश्वलाई प्रकाशित गर्न सक्ने सम्पूर्ण साहित्य सर्जकमा नमन ।

(नोटः यस लेखको मूल रूप पहिलो पटक साहित्यपोस्टमा २०२० जुन १७ मा प्रकाशित भएको थियो । लेखको अङ्ग्रेजी संस्करण यहाँ पढ्न सकिन्छ ।)

On Not Being Able to Write

Until some months ago, writing was a piece of cake. Words used to flow effortlessly. Since I took a break from writing, the words are being stopped by some barrier. Yet, here I am trying to find why I could not write.

# Reason 1: I got busy.

I had to prepare Maths and Science lessons, then try to teach rebellious teenagers, fail at taking control of the classes, and take a lot of undue stress. I asked the school administration how I could get the attention of my students. They suggested strong body language and beatings, if necessary. I was not convinced. So, I looked up books on taking control of the class. One book by Rob Plevin seemed useful but teaching Maths to students who fear or hate it is a huge challenge. I am doing my best. However, it’s not enough.

Three months ago, I got calls from my friends and they got me involved in a project. They had collected field data and told me and Deepa to prepare a geological map. On AutoCAD! I knew the basics of the software but had never made used it to make a geological map. The learning process was stressful as there was nobody to guide us. And the hours of work on laptop stressed my eyes. I used to be so tired, I used to sleep the moment I got free time.

There were also PSC exams. After completing the second version of the map, there was about a week for preparation. It went on without any disturbance. I did well in the exams too. Then came exams for another company and I still have one left this Saturday. Hope it goes well. Fingers crossed!

I also had to get involved in household chores that I could not avoid.

# Reason 2: I stopped caring about things or when I did, I could not express them.

In the past months, I did not care for a lot of things. They are all out of my memory. There were a lot of things during elections in April and May, but I chose silence over speaking and writing. (I was also busy to write anything!) Let history take its course, was my mantra.

There were other issues that grabbed my attention but instead of writing my feelings or thoughts, I followed what others said or wrote. Sometimes, it is better to remain quiet and understand the whole situation before making an opinion. Waiting to understand a situation helped me remain calm for most of the time.

# Reason 3: I made excuses when I had time or had an opinion.

I have been avoiding writing by making excuses. I have not written anything even for my wife. Even on her request. It’s getting embarrassing. Wish I could write anything at any time! I should stop making excuses. I should keep writing…

I got stuck (Is it a good sign?)

I was thinking about it every time I had some leisure. I had discovered a “mind-blowing” way to convert my short story “Leave Me Alone” into a novel. I had worked about eight chapters within a month. These chapters would end the first part and I was ready to move into the crucial second part. Then I suddenly felt I needed a prologue. A chapter apart from the rest of the story that would create suspense. (It already had some suspense. I was trying to mix some spices.) That prologue introduced me to the major problem in my plot: how was my heroine doing what she was doing?

I had worked out the “why” and I had thought I knew “how” but things got complicated. I was teleporting her to places where I wanted her to be, and she was doing things the way I wanted in an unnatural way. My story is not a fantasy. It’s a contemporary psychological thriller. No way was I going to introduce myself opening doors for her (I feel this would make a good sci-fi!), and neither was I going to let anything happen just like that. So, why the plot hole?

I don’t know. Maybe, I planned in the wrong manner. Perhaps the changes I had brought about in the prologue rang the bells. Whatever it was, I believe, was for the best! How would I make others believe in an unbelievable story? I’ve stalled it until I find a solution.

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I felt an itch. Actually, I’d been thinking about it for a few days now. I had linked “Quest” with “Leave Me Alone”, and the latter with “The Peacemaker” (I have built its concept but not written a word yet. Or, can I say it’s first chapter is already in “Leave Me Alone”, just in another POV?). So, because there was a link, I was thinking of completing “Quest”.

The biggest problem in this rewriting was that my old computer is dead and until it’s repaired I had no access to the “latest” version I created about last year. Or, so I thought. Then I searched my phone. I found the original version (Thank God!). I checked Google Docs. There were eight chapters each of last two versions. Now the problem is: I first need to sort out which “doc” belongs to which version. Then I need to compile and (probably) rewrite.

This rewrite is going to be fun. I have a guide. I have versions in third person and in first person. I need to decide what to use now. I have events in different orders. I might have to reorder, delete and add. I have written four or five versions of “Quest” already. I must make it my final. The solution for the plot problem I had discovered last year, is going to make it interesting. But the biggest challenge is to stand out as the self-proclaimed genius! (After sorting out the problems, I had called myself a “genius”. Damn, that’s a crown I cannot handle!)

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