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Leave Me Alone-1

This is the first chapter in a short story of total six chapters. It is a tale of Ajay and Sasha- a couple in love- and their families. Their parents had committed mistakes which are going to affect their relationships.

Sasha smiled as she swiped the screen of the phone to dismiss the call. In less than three seconds, the phone beeped again. ‘Ajay,’ it read for the eleventh time that evening. “Receive that call,” Rosa, a colleague of Sasha said to her, “he seems desperate.”

Sasha smiled coyly and swiped the phone’s screen to receive the call. “Finally,” sighed Ajay. “Now, before you decide to cut this conversation off, I have to say that I have been waiting for you in the parking. And I’m feeling odd.”

“It’s not the first time you have waited for me,” Sasha teased. “Keep waiting. You might make a world record of waiting in the parking- more than most of the cars over there.”

“That would be great. However, you would be the cause. You would also make the bad record of making people wait. Come quick,” he chuckled.

“Okay, I’m coming.” Sasha cut off the connection again and grinned. She closed the file she was examining and looked at the clock on the wall over the reception desk. She always preferred looking at that large clock when she was there even if she had a watch or a phone that could tell her time. She produced another register, signed up and said to the girl who had been sitting on a chair beside her, “Time’s up. It is your turn to take care of the patients, Rosa. Especially the one on bed number 331.”

Rosa nodded. She had already prepared herself for the night shift. Sasha smiled and walked out. The hospital she worked on was not as crowded and noisy in the evenings. She loved this tranquillity but she also knew was it was short-lived. Once someone wailed out of pain, the nurses would have to be the first to reach them. Sasha need not rush at that time, though. Her eight hours long shift had just ended. She could go home and get a good night’s sleep.

But she was not thinking of sleep that evening. All she wanted at that moment was that to reconcile with her boyfriend and celebrate the anniversary of their first meet. She had not told Ajay anything yet. She had planned a surprise for some days. All she had to do was to convince him to go to her house. He had left her up to the gate several times but had always refused to go in. It would be a tough job. Moreover, she was tired already. She wished he accepted the proposal without much effort.

All her fatigue faded when she saw him sitting on the bonnet of his red car. She had thought of surprising him but Ajay was certainly keeping his eyes upon the corridor from which she would come. He jumped and walked a few steps towards her and opened his arms, smiling. Sasha hugged him tight. Without saying anything, he dragged her into the car. When he shut the door on Sasha’s right, Ajay ran around and took the driver’s seat. Before the engine roared, he had played Sasha’s favourite music. Sasha smiled as the car went out to the street. Thoughts were racing on her mind, ‘How can you always care for me, Ajay? Am I even worthy of your love? Can I love you like you love me?’

They passed through the streets of the sleeping city quickly. Within fifteen minutes, Ajay stopped the car in front of Sasha’s house. “Aren’t you coming in?” Sasha said. Those were the first words since they had met that evening.

“No.” Ajay plainly replied.

“You must come in,” she insisted. “You always leave me at the gate and drive away. That’s not going to happen tonight.”

“Practically, I can’t drive into your house. How will I convince my dad to compensate for the damage upon the car and your house?” Sasha laughed heartily. Ajay continued, “Will you just stay here with me? That would be better.”

“But you won’t feel warm and cosy in here.”

“What did you just say? This is a luxury vehicle. Temperature and comfort is not a problem in here.”

Ajay looked a little annoyed. Maybe he was playing with her. Sasha felt she was failing. But she would not fail that day. She put her right arm around Ajay and looking lovingly into his eyes, said, “Just for a cup of coffee. Please.”

Ajay surprised her. He agreed. ‘Too easy,’ Sasha thought, ‘so he might have been planning something himself.’ She did not ask anything, however. She just hugged him tight and got off the car to be hit by a frosty breeze. She walked a few steps and opened the gate. Ajay drove in. She showed him the garage and she herself stood waiting at the porch. When her boyfriend saw Sasha standing outside her house, he said, “Did you lose your keys?” Raising his hands up, he continued, “If you want me to break into your house, I give up. I can’t do it.”

Sasha rolled her eyes. Ajay grinned and moved closer to her. She turned her back and opened the door with the key she had already taken out from her handbag. Within seconds, they were in the living hall. Ajay seemed mesmerized. Smiling, Sasha told him to rest on the couch while she went to the kitchen. She put the milk-pan on the stove, turned on the gas, and waited for the milk in it to boil.

All of a sudden, someone put arms around her waist. Shocked, she turned around to look straight into Ajay’s eyes. She too put her hands around his neck and pulled him towards her lips. At the very moment, a strong stench hit her nose- the stench of gas. She pushed Ajay and looked at the mess on the stove. At the exact moment Ajay had caught her, the milk had boiled and fallen over the fire, ceasing it. She turned off the gas and transferred the milk-pan to another stove. She added some water and heated the milk again. Within two minutes, she poured the content into two coffee-mugs, added two spoons of coffee on each of them. She then went back to the living room. She had already noticed that Ajay had left the kitchen as soon as she had pushed her.

Ajay was looking at a large portrait on the wall behind the couch. “Ahem,” Sasha coughed once. Ajay looked at her and smiling, asked, “This is a beautiful picture. When had you shot a photo on a red sari, though? This portrait does not seem recent.”

Sasha grinned as he handed a mug of coffee to Ajay. She raised her eyebrows as if questioning, ‘Guess who?’ Ajay looked at Sasha and the portrait again and said, “It’s your mother’s, isn’t it? Wow, you both look so similar.”

Ajay’s statement did not surprise Sasha. She had heard that compliment from a lot of people. However, she was impressed that Ajay had discovered the truth himself. Ajay sipped the coffee and sat on the long couch talking about something Sasha did not properly hear. She went closer to him, put her head on his chest, and looked up at Ajay. He too was stared at him lovingly.

All of a sudden, he jumped and the coffee in his hand spilled upon her clothes. Sasha noticed Ajay as she jumped up as well. He seemed scared; but she could not understand what he was frightened of. She could not have scared him. ‘Oh no, my uniform,’ Sasha also realized that she had not changed. Without looking at Ajay, she said, “I’ll come right now.”

Sasha rushed upstairs and picked up a beautiful red dress from her drawer. She put on some make up and was about to move out when she noticed that she had brought her coffee-mug to her room. She finished the lukewarm beverage in one gulp and went downstairs into the kitchen. As she put the mug into the sink, she saw a woman’s reflection on the mirror. The woman stood behind Sasha wearing a red sari and red blouse. She was smiling at her and talking, but her words invoked terror. She was saying, “Kill that boy, Sasha.”

“Why?” Sasha asked.

“Don’t act like you do not know,’ the woman snapped, “You know what I am talking about.”

“No, I don’t. I don’t understand why you want to harm him.”

“Not just harm, “Sasha’s mother looked enraged, “but I want him dead.” Sasha chuckled. The woman continued, “Why don’t you understand, Sasha? All men are the same. Once his desires are fulfilled, he will leave you helpless like beggars in the streets. I don’t want you to suffer.”

“You’re mistaken, Mom. He is not anything like you say.”

“Why is he not? You do not even need to look back into distant past if you try to understand what I am saying. Just recall how he had grabbed you from behind. That was not a move of a decent man. He did not even apologise.”

“He did not say anything, Mom, but I have looked into his eyes and know that he meant no evil,” Sasha replied. “And remember, I won’t let you harm him.”

“You don’t understand, Sasha,” Sasha’s mother stared at her angrily, “You have been blinded by love and you don’t leave me a choice.”She abruptly produced a steel rod (Sasha had not noticed it earlier) and hit hard on Sasha’s head. She felt her vision blurring. Sasha looked with disgust at the woman on the red sari, as she fell and hit the cold floor.

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Those Untold Feelings

The boy was looking down the street. He had been waiting for someone and it had not even been ten minutes since he had arrived. However, he felt restless. He had been looking at his watch more than fifty times and had taken short glance to his right every ten seconds. He would  stand up and walk a few steps. Less than a minute later, he Several things were running in his mind. He had never felt that nervous before. Neither had he ever gone through a situation like he was then.

Her arrival changed him a bit. She had finally come- he felt a little relaxed. But a few seconds later, his nerves got him again. He felt heat on his ears. She came up smiling at him and seeing him nervous, said, “Hi! You don’t look well.”
“No, I’m fine,” the boy said immediately.

She caught his lie as he spoke. He has never been able to lie to her. She knew something was wrong. She pestered on him. The boy did not say anything but smiled as he often did. He had so many things in his mind but had no words to speak them out. What was happening to him? He knew he was being nervous but why? He had talked with the girl before. They had talked fluently over different things. Why wasn’t he able to say everything he had in his mind.

Whether his smile worked or the girl had something else to preoccupy her, she changed the topic, “How did your exam go?”

The boy had just taken an exam for the government service. He had done well. He said so. She simply said, “It might have been easy for you. You have a knack for general knowledge.”

The boy just smiled. It was a fact known to most of his friends and he had no way but to accept the fact. GK had always been his talent. That was why almost everyone thought he could be a section officer easily. He did not want to talk about the exam and his employments opportunities that day. He was being distracted. “Other things aside,” he thought, ‘I must speak out what I actually want to.’

Determined, he had just opened his mouth when he heard the girl beside him say with ecstasy, “You know what? My boyfriend proposed me yesterday evening in front of the family. We are getting married as soon as the results of my back paper comes out.”

The boy was speechless. He could not let out another word. He looked at the girl who was almost talking to herself about the last evening. He could hear the excitement in her voice and he could happiness in her eyes. What could he say? He had known her boyfriend. He had even imagined how she and her boyfriend would have reacted if he had let his heart out that day. Now, knowing that they were getting married soon, within the split second, he decided to stuff the things he had been planning to say for long. He would never again bring them up on the surface.

She was still talking as he was looking at her with a smile on his face. Her happiness- that was what he had prayed to God everyday. He could have given up everything for that. All he had to do was to keep the secret of his heart to himself. Without ever letting it out, he could she smile on her face and happiness in her eyes.

He stood up all of a sudden and then said smiling, “Congratulations! Wish you a happy married life.”

“I’m not married yet,” the girl objected.

“You’re definitely becoming a bride very soon. I wish you well.”

“You are coming to our wedding. I will make sure you’ll be invited.”

“You’ll make sure of that, I know but I might not be able to go then. That’s why I wish you a blessed conjugal life,” the boy said.

“You wished me thrice already,” the girl showed her presence of mind. The boy replied looking at her eyes, “So that it might be lucky for you.”

She did not get logic in what he said. She laughed heartily as she said, “You can be so funny at times.”

After almost an hour, the boy received a call on his cell phone. He left immediately. But he felt there was a hollow in his mind which could increase if he did not do something to cover it up.

Indecision crept on him, though. He could not think anything except that he had been late. So late that nothing could happen. All he could think of was crying. That night, as the silence increased, he cried. Tears left his eyes like a stream and sobs changed into hiccups. He cried so much that only sleep could break it. When it came up, he could not say. All he could say was that his pillow had been wet with his tears and that he could never forget her.

श्री लोडसेडिङ्ग बढ्त कथा

वृद्ध बाजे आज्ञा गर्नु हुन्छ– हे नाति नातिना हो ! त्यहाँ उप्रान्त नेपालमा लोडसेडिङ्गको चकचकी बढ्न थाल्यो । कस्तो भने- छिनमै आउने अनि छिनमै जाने । त्यो कस्तो थियो भने- कालो, अन्धकारको वस्त्र भिर्ने अनि सबैका घरघरमा एकैचोटि पसेर एकैचोटि निस्कन सक्ने- कुनै दैवी वा अलौकिक शक्तिभन्दा कम थिएन । हिउँद बढ्दै जाँदा मानवगण उसको प्रतिक्षामा बसेका देखिन्थे । कोही बच्चाबच्ची भन्थे- “लोडसेडिङ्ग आएपछि होमवर्क गरौँला, अलिबेर टिभी हेर्छौँ ।” केही तरुण जोडीका लागि ऊ वरदान भएको थियो । काम गर्नाका अल्छीले पनि चैनको सास फेर्दै भन्थे- “वाह ! लोडसेडिङ्ग आएपछि क्या मजासँग सुत्न पाइन्छ । सुत्न छाडेर को काम गरोस्, आ ऽऽऽ!”

वृद्ध बाजे आज्ञा गर्नुहुन्छ- “हे नाति नातिना हो ! अब के सुन्ने इच्छा छ ? सो मलाई बताओ ।” तब उम्रिँदैमा तीनपाते फुच्चे नातिले हात जोड्दै बिन्ती गरे- “हे बाजे ! लोडसेडिङ्गले कस्ता समस्या ल्यायो अनि समाधानका प्रयास कस्ता थिए ? सो विषयमा कहनुहोस् ।” तब वृद्ध बाजे आज्ञा गर्नुहुन्छ- लोडसेडिङ्गले सानादेखि ठूलासम्म सबैलाई दुःख दिएको भए तापनि प्रायः कोही चिन्तित देखिदैनथे । लोडसेडिङ्गलाई दिनचर्यामा ढाल्न खप्पिस भइसकेका थिए उनीहरू । तैपनि लोडसेडिङ्ग कस्तो समयमा आउँथ्यो भने- कोही टिभीमा फिलिम र सिरियल हेरिरहेका, कोही कम्प्युटरमा च्याट गरिरहेका, कोही राइस कुकरमा भात पकाइरहेका, कोही अँध्यारा पाइखानामा र कोही सिँढीमा चढिरहेका- यस्ता समयमा ऊ आउँथ्यो । अझ कोही अर्जेन्ट काम गरिरहेका अनि उद्योग धन्दामा व्यस्त भइरहँदा समेत त्यो आउँथ्यो । लोडसेडिङ्गको कारण कसैको सिरियल छुटेको थियो भने कसैको खाना बिग्रेको थियो । च्याट गर्दागर्दै ऊ अचानक आउँदा कतिको सम्बन्ध पनि टुटेको थियो ।

यस्तै रीतले दिव्य दुई सय वर्ष * बिते । हिउँदमा लोडसेडिङ्ग नआओस् भनेर कलाकारहरू, साहित्यकारहरू व्यङ्ग्य गर्न थाले । ठाउँठाउँमा इन्जिनियर र उद्योगीहरू सभा बस्न थाले । लोडसेडिङ्ग हटाउन मद्दत गर्नुपर्यो भनेर नेताहरूलाई पनि गुहारे तर सहयोग नपाएपछि बिजुली देव हो कि देवीलाई भेट्न भनी कुलेखानीको हाइड्रोपावर ‘प्लान्टमा’ पुगे । त्यहाँ बिजुली देव (कि देवी ?) लाई भेट्न नसकी त्रिशुली, कालीगण्डकीजस्ता ठूला जलविद्युत् परियोजनामा समेत उहाँको उपस्थिति नगण्य भएर गफ गर्न नपाएपछि अचम्म मान्दै गुगलमार्फत ध्यानदृष्टिले हेर्दा एउटा लघु जलविद्युत् आयोजनामा हुनुहुन्छ भन्ने थाहा पाएर त्यतै गए ।

बल्लतल्ल बिजुली देव (कि देवी ?) को दर्शन पाएका थिए- उहाँ त तारमा पो दौडदै हनुहुँदो रहेछ । ती विद्वानवर्गले स्तुति गाउँदै भने- हे बिजुली देव वा देवी, जे भएपनि ! हाम्रो पुकार सुनेर हाम्रो सङ्कट निवारण गरिदिनुहोस् । हे देव (वा देवी ?) ! हजुर कस्ता भने- उज्यालोमा रही उज्यालोमै रम्ने, यस्ता हजुरलाई कोटिकोटि नमस्कार छ ! अन्धकारको साथी लोडसेडिङ्गलाई तह लगाउन सक्ने यस्ता हजुरलाई कोटिकोटि नमस्कार ! भक्तजनमाथि आशिष् दिएर कहिले खाना पकाउन त कहिले अर्काकी छोरी फकाउन मद्दत गर्ने यस्ता हजुरलाई कोटिकोटि नमस्कार ! हे भक्तवत्सल, हे निरञ्जन, निराकार ! हजुरको शक्ति असीमित छ । एकै ठाउँबाट तारमार्फत घरघरमा दौडन सक्ने हजुरलाई कोटिकोटि नमस्कार छ ! लोडसेढिङ्गको प्रहारले पटकपटक मृत्यु वरण गरेपनि अमर भइरहेका यस्ता हजुरलाई कोटिकोटि नमस्कार छ । ठूलाठूला घरमा चौबिसै घण्टा आएर तिनकै घर छेउका सोझा सिधा नेपालीका घरमा पाहुना बनेर झुल्कने यस्ता हजुरलाई कोटिकोटि नमस्कार ! हजुरको महिमाको वर्णन गर्न हजार जिब्रा भएका शेषनाग (विचरा, उनको त मान्छेको जस्तो बोली नै छैन, के गरून् !) र सरस्वती (तिनले कुन देउताको महिमा पूर्ण रूपले गरेकी छन् र हजुरको गरून् !) ले पनि नसकेका, हामी तुच्छ (नागभन्दा पनि ?) मनुष्यले कसरी सकौँला ? त्यसैले हाम्रो प्रार्थना सुनी कृपा गर्नुहोस्, प्रभु (कि माता जेसुकै होस्) !

विद्वानवर्गका यस्ता सुमधुर वचनले प्रशन्न भई बिजुली देव (कि देवी?) एकछिन वेग अलि कम गरेर भन्नुहुन्छ- हे नेपाली कलाकार, साहित्यकार, इन्जिनियर र उद्योगी हो ! तिमीहरूको प्रार्थनादेखि म खुसी भएँ तर अहिले नै लोडसेडिङ्गलाई हराउने तागत मसँग छैन । खास गरी अन्धकार बाले उसलाई आफ्नै सन्तान सरह रेखदेख गरेकाले पनि म भन्दा लोडसेडिङ्ग हृष्टपुष्ट छ । अन्धकार बाको यस्तो कामको विरोध पनि त म गर्न सक्दिनँ । (बिचरा बिजुली देव हो कि देवी हो!- नाति) फेरि लोडसेडिङ्ग म भन्दा धीर भएको छ । कतिसम्म भने- लगातार आठ दश घण्टा पनि एकै ठाउँ बस्न सक्ने । म चाहिँ चञ्चल हुनाले कहिले यता कहिले उता गरिरहन्छु । मेरा कुरालाई अन्यथा नलेओ भक्तजन ! तर अहिलेको मेरो अवस्था लोडसेडिङ्गलाई परास्त गर्न सक्षम छैन ।”

तब बाजेकी फुच्ची तर छुच्ची नातिनी बिन्ती गर्छिन्- “हे बाजे ! त्यसो भए उहाँ चिरकालका लागि शक्तिहीन रहनुहुन्छ ? के उहाँ आउनुहुन्न ?” नातिनीका प्रश्न सुनी बाजे भन्नुहुन्छ- बिजुलीले त्यही बेला ती विद्वानवर्ग सँग आउन त मान्नुभएन तर एउटा उपाय सुझाउनु भयो- “म अहिले सानो परियोजनामा मज्जाले कुदेको छु । अरू यस्तै ठाउँमा म हरपल दौडेको छु । ठूला परियोजनामा कहिलेकाहीँ कुद्दा भन्दा धेरै खुसी यहाँ छ । त्यसैले हे भक्तजन ! लघु जलविद्युतमा हात बढाओ, वैकल्पिक ऊर्जाको खोजी गर, गाउँशहरमा तिनलाई पुर्याओ । ठूला आयोजना राष्ट्रिय हित अनुसार सम्पन्न गराओ; कसैको स्वार्थका लागि तिनलाई बन्द नगर । विद्युत प्राधिकरणका भ्रष्ट कर्मचारीलाई डाँडामात्र होइन, देशै कटाओ । यति गर्नसके लोडसेडिङ्ग पराजित भइजाला ।”

यति भनीसकी उहाँ तारमार्फत वेगसँग गाउँका घरघरमा पुग्नुभयो । विद्वानवर्गले वाल्ल परेर एकछिन त्यो दृश्य हेर्दै उहाँको वाणी मनन गरी आआफ्ना आश्रममा फिर्दा भए ।

।।इति श्री नेपाल पुराणे हिउँद खण्डे विद्युत माहात्म्ये बाजे नातिनातिना संवादे श्री लोडसेडिङ्ग बढ्त कथायं बिजुली प्रार्थना वर्णनं नाम सङ्कटोध्याय ।।


* दिव्य दुई सय वर्ष = बीस वर्ष

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