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Overhyping the SEE can be stressful to teenager students

SEE is still overhyped in 2025; It’s time we move beyond the hype

The results of the 10th Grade, Secondary Education Examination (SEE) create a huge buzz in Nepal. No other exam results get such hype. The overemphasis and craze for SEE results is the legacy of its predecessor, the School Leaving Certificate (SLC), which was called the Iron Gate because of the lucrative education and job opportunities it opened. Since the SLC is now taken at Grade 12 and has become the key credential for jobs and higher education, the SEE has lost its former importance. Unfortunately, SEE still takes centre stage in Nepal’s education, pressuring students, teachers, schools, and parents.

The Pressure of SEE

In 2022, I taught six 10th graders and twelve 9th graders at a private school. The 10th graders were worried about their SEE. The school management and parents were tense too. Lockdowns had affected their classes, and we had about three months to complete more than 75% of the syllabus of compulsory maths, science, and additional maths. They were taking classes from six in the morning to eight in the evening. The regular classes were, however, between ten and four. They were under immense pressure.

And I was under pressure myself. I was with them throughout their second half, teaching them three subjects in regular time as well as during the extra classes. Later, when they were all compulsorily hostelized for the last month before the SEE, the only thing they had to do was study. If they did anything else, they would be punished with canes.

I was against beating students and even controlling them, however. I always encouraged them to ask about the problems they did not understand, discuss their perspectives on Nepalese politics, and discuss how they used technology. Such an openness created some friction between me and the school management, but eventually, the students coped with the pressure and completed their SEE with outstanding GPAs.

How I gave the SLC

You can say my teaching experience was a special situation created by unprecedented lockdowns, but the 10th graders, especially from private schools, have been going through the same routine for decades. It’s how I studied, and it’s how the new generation still does. Nothing has changed, and perhaps, we have normalised the pressure.

Fifteen years ago I gave my SLC. That entire year, I woke up at 5 AM for school, returning home for meals and attending classes until 6:30 PM, followed by additional tuition from 7 to 8 PM. I often did homework until midnight, feeling exhausted but motivated by the mantra of a “better future.” After completing my SLC, I spent the first week sleeping in the hope of recovering from the intense routine.

This experience mirrors what my students went through years later, showing how entrenched our exam culture still is.

What has changed?

The SLC dropped the percentage marking system in 2016 and adopted GPA (most people still don’t understand it). Two years later, the SLC itself shifted from Grade 10 to Grade 12, with its value intact but hype reduced. The Grade 10 exams got a new name, the SEE. But the education system has remained the same (some say it has worsened); students, teachers, and parents still face the same pressure; and there is still unnecessary hype around it.

Why is SEE overhyped?

SLC’s legacy

As I said earlier in the essay, one of the major reasons for the overemphasis on SEE is the legacy of the SLC. For a long time, Grade 10 was the end of school education. The result of SLC opened the door to university degrees and job opportunities. Until four or five batches before I took the SLC, the exams included questions from grades 9 and 10. Without rigorous preparation, it was difficult to crack the exam.

The government seems to have understood the effect of pressure on students due to the SLC. It stopped declaring the toppers officially, removed Grade 9’s course from the exams, introduced the GPA, and even changed the name. But the media still find toppers, and schools still compete to admit them.

Promotions of schools

Schools with SLC board toppers, a high number of distinctions, and first divisions used to be featured in national magazines. They used to see increased admissions. Schools competed to make their students toppers. Colleges and higher secondary schools that admitted toppers automatically attracted other guardians and students.

The same story continues in the SEE era. Media (traditional and social media alike) absurdly highlight students securing 4.0 GPAs as the toppers when it’s possible for students with lower GPAs to actually beat them, as I show in an example in this article. Higher secondary schools, most of them still marketing as “colleges,” label themselves as “topper’s choice.” SEE results are thus easier promotion tools for schools.

Mentality of the older generation

The SLC generation, including me, is still influential in making policy decisions. It also dictates the ways students should work towards their SEE. Teachers and parents are also from the older generation, where SLC used to be a tough nut to crack. They did the same things they are now imposing on the new generation, probably passing on the same trauma.

What should we do?

We should stop hyping the SEE

SEE is one of the many exams students gave in the past and will give in the future. Schools and teachers should facilitate students, not scare them. They should allow students to play, engage in sports, and participate in extra-curricular activities. Curriculum should be enjoyable and emphasise practicality and creativity. Parents should help their children stay calm, reduce pressure at home, and allow them to pursue their hobbies or interests.

We should listen to the students

Students of the present generation are full of creativity. Social media have also made them well-informed, even though mainstream media say otherwise. They are aware of the political and economic environment of Nepal as well as that of abroad because their siblings migrated there for education and/or work. They are also full of curiosity. Talking to them gives schools and teachers a fresh perspective on the world they are living in. It helps teachers modify their ways of teaching to meet their expectations. Students also learn critical thinking and even understand the adult world.

We should encourage better teaching and learning environment

Better teaching environment in Nepal often translates into classes with strict discipline, one-way communication from the teacher, and non-questioning students. Discipline is non-negotiable, but it is wrong to stop questions in the name of disciplining students. Like I said before, there should be a meaningful interaction between teachers and students. Schools should encourage discussions between the teachers and students. They should facilitate practical education and reward creativity.

Conclusion

Overemphasis on the SEE results may have some promotional advantage for schools, but other than that, it creates pressure on everyone. Despite the government’s intention to decrease the pressure on students of Grade 10, our mindset and education system are sticking with the old ways. Parents, teachers, school administration, and the media should work in tandem to reduce stress on the students. When we stop overhyping SEE, we get schools that prioritise creative learning, teachers who encourage critical thinking, and parents who allow pursuits other than study. Students, thus, get a learning environment where they are loved, respected, and less stressed.

An image after Satya realises that Kalpana loves him

Satya – Part Four: She Loves Me?

Bright light hurts my eyes. It takes me some time to adapt to it. Have I died? Is this heaven? No, it is not. If I were in heaven, I should not have felt pain. I should have been free. But I can’t even move. I realise that I’m strapped to the bed. The sharp odour of spirit hits my nose. It’s a hospital.

Hospital?

Why am I alive? Kalpana, Chetan, Manas, Dad, Mom, everyone wanted to kill me. They trapped me and injected something in my blood, didn’t they? Yet, I’m still alive! They don’t want to kill me but torture me? Why? Do they enjoy seeing me in pain? How could they stoop this low?

I don’t remember their faces, though. Memories are foggy.

A woman comes into the room. She is wearing a white tunic. She checks my vitals and asks, “How are you feeling?”

“I feel…” I pause for a while. What should I say? Should I be happy for being alive? Or should I feel shit for being strapped? In the end, I said, “I feel nothing.”

“Why?”

“I don’t know.”

“I wish I could read all your feelings so that I can heal you.”

I stare at her as the nurse speaks. She looks familiar, but I can’t tell how I know her. The effort I make to remember her exhausts me. My eyes are heavy. I fall asleep before she goes out of the room.

I don’t know how many days, weeks, or months have passed in this white room. I sleep a lot. I am strapped except when I am escorted to the washroom. A small set of staff takes care of me. They are within earshot. They bring me food and medicine and leave nothing behind. The weird thing is that I haven’t seen that nurse again. I have inquired about her, but nobody knows her. I am not sure if the doctor can help me. But how do I ask him?

The doctor scares me. He is gigantic, bald, and has a big moustache. He asks me the same questions in his hoarse voice every day: Who are you? How do you feel? Do you want to meet your family or friends? Had I sustained any injury during childhood? My answers, too, are fixed: I’m Satya; I feel nothing; I don’t want to meet anyone; I had no life-threatening injury during childhood. Before he left, he would ask, “Do you have something to share with me?”

“No,” I said, as always.

He stared at me, and I stared back at him. The more I gazed into his eyes, the more I started feeling that he was not scary. I finally decide to talk. “I want to ask you to know something.”

He raises his eyebrows. “Really?”

“Yes. It’s important.”

“How long have you been wanting to say it to me?”

“Do you know what I want to ask?”

“Maybe.”

“What do you know, doctor?”

The old doctor strokes his chin. “Well, I’ve heard that you’re looking for a nurse. And that you’ve not found her.”

“So, you know. Why didn’t you do anything?”

He shrugs. “You never asked.”

I don’t buy it. “You could have helped me.”

“Actually, I don’t know how to help you.”

“What? Why?”

“I don’t know any nurse that entered this room that night. In fact, I had strictly ordered them not to come in.”

“What?”

“I’m curious as well. How did she look?”

“I can’t give you the details, but she felt familiar.”

“Familiar?” He strokes his chin again and murmurs. “Hmm… family? Friend?”

“Hmm. I don’t think so, doctor.”

“I feel she is important to you. I have no idea how I can help you, but I’ll try.”

The doctor has left, but our conversation lingers in my mind. I had denied any connection to my family or friends, but do I really know them? I struggle to recall the faces of my parents and Kalpana. My images of my friends are all blurred. I don’t understand anything. I feel helpless. Fear creeps in, then sadness. I can’t hold my feelings anymore. I bury my face in the pillow and spill out all the emotions in the form of tears.

“What happened, Satya? Why are you crying?”

The voice startles me. It’s that nurse. Still unable to contain my emotions, I wail. She comes closer, sits on my bed, and caresses my hair. She does not say anything until I let go of all my feelings and stop crying. 

“I don’t know… I don’t know anyone… I can’t remember anyone.”

“You will, Satya. You need some rest.”

“How can I rest when I don’t have memories of anyone? How do I rest knowing nobody loves me?”

“Look at me, Satya.”

I can’t look at her. I don’t have the strength to talk to her. But she keeps insisting. I turn around and see her smiling. A comforting smile. Looking into my eyes, she says, “Weren’t you looking for me?”

“Yes.”

“Then why are you ignoring me when I am here with you?”

“I’m sorry.”

“It’s okay.”

“Where have you been?”

“I have always been with you.”

“Hmm… How?”

“I am in your heart, Satya.”

I am perplexed while her smile widens. “Really?”

“Yes.”

“It’s still not the same as being with you.”

“You don’t always need to be with the person you love. All you need to do is to spare a thought for them.”

I have heard that somewhere. Why does this nurse feel close to my heart?

“Because,” she says. “You know me, Satya.”

Is she reading my mind? Who is she?

“You know me, Satya. I’m the one you’ve loved.”

My eyes widen. I recognise her. “You’re—”

“I’m—”

“Kalpana.” We say in unison.

Memories flood into my mind. The faces of my parents became clear. Manas, Chetan, and all my friends smile at me. Kalpana is grinning with them. She looks just like the first time we met. I had been crazy to even think she was going to kill me. I hate myself.

“Don’t hate yourself, Satya,” Kalpana says. “We love you no matter what. You were ill. Now, you’ve become well.”

I am soaked in tears of joy. I sleep peacefully for the first time in who knows how long.

← Part Three

Part Five →

A sketch representing parenting a toddler and a newborn

Jealousy, Tantrums, and Love: Parenting a Toddler and a Newborn

Last week, we were blessed with our second child. This newborn boy gave us immense joy but also brought some challenges, particularly in parenting a toddler and a newborn.

When our son was conceived, our daughter was just 19 months old. Now, at 28 months, she is in a tender phase. Fortunately, we live in a joint family, and my parents were supportive throughout the pregnancy. My wife carried the baby while continuing to care for our daughter with relative ease, and that allowed me time to manage work, studies, and household responsibilities.

This week, however, everything changed.

As my wife got admitted to the hospital for the delivery, and my mother stayed with her, the full responsibility of caring for our toddler fell on me. I realised how demanding and unpredictable this age can be. Managing her diet, facing her tantrums, and soothing her aggression require a whole new level of patience (and I am generally a patient guy). It’s difficult to say when her mood changes from calm to aggressive and when she demands chocolates and junk food. Saying “no” is hard; handling the consequences is even harder.

I am also noticing that our daughter is going through an emotional turmoil (of course, she cannot explain it) as she sees her brother being nurtured. She had been excited to meet her baby brother, thinking he would talk and play with her right away. She was eager to kiss, cuddle, and caress him. But when her brother does not talk and play, and when we warn her not to caress and kiss him hard, she gets visibly upset.

What affects her most, though, is the shift in her mother’s attention. Due to the Caesarean section, my wife cannot hold our daughter on her lap or play with her the way she used to. And while the baby gets to lie next to his mother and be constantly cared for, our daughter is sometimes pushed away because of physical and emotional exhaustion. I have seen her frowns when her mother gets irritated by her playful touches. These frowns at times turn into aggression when she slaps me and my sister. Lately, she’s also been craving sugar and chocolates more frequently, and calming her has become increasingly difficult.

As a father, I feel guilty at times. Our daughter is too young to handle her emotions. And we were not prepared for her tantrums and mood swings. While I think she will slowly cope with the situation, I am also discussing these things with my wife, parents, and sister to help our daughter grow emotionally strong.

My mother often says that I became more introverted and emotionally distant from her. I don’t want that to happen to my daughter. I want her to suppress her feelings or feel sidelined. I want to help her to feel heard and loved. I want her to bond strongly with her mother and little brother so that she stays as expressive as she is now.

This journey of parenting two under three has just begun, and every day brings new lessons. If you have had such experiences, please include them in the comment box. We would love to learn from you.

Satya restrained as he shouts, Kill Me with Chetan in the background

Satya – Part Three: Kill Me!

I escaped the slaughterhouse, but I had nowhere to go.

I had never before noticed how alone Kalpana had made me. She had gained so much influence over my parents that they were doing whatever she made them do. Her soft voice and cheerful nature had impressed them from the start. They had shared many secrets with her even before we had married. Sometimes, even I did not know the things my parents had told Kalpana. She had won their trust, while my miscommunication with them made us distant. They did not trust me with the family affairs. They thought I was unreliable with my decisions. They always said I argued aggressively while discussing things. Because Kalpana had become the daughter they never had, they abandoned me. They were supporting her in her murderous intent!

I had to go somewhere. But where?

I had lost communication with all my friends. It was my fault that I trusted her, that I gave her my full attention. I loved her. I used to share everything with her. I gave her my phone while she was not content with her small, low-tech phone. She then logged me out of all the social media and deleted my contacts. She never let me use the phone. She would chat with her friends and talk with her parents until the battery drained. If she saw me near the phone while it was charging, she would say, “Don’t use the phone while it’s charging.” I started using the phone after she slept. It was a successful move for a while. However, she used to wake up, throw the phone away, and say, “Why aren’t you sleeping? Hold me instead of that phone.” I would comply.

And where did that get me? Nowhere to go when I needed help!

Thinking hard, you popped up in my mind, Chetan. You were my best friend. Kalpana had cut me off from you. But I knew where you lived and worked. Since it was evening, I guessed you might be home. So, I came. As I ran, a thought came up in my mind. What if you, too, had been under Kalpana’s influence? What if you had turned into a predator? But I told myself to have some faith because you are my best friend.

You were home, as I expected. You greeted me with a smile. “Long time no see, bro. You really surprised me this evening. Let’s go out and chill. What do you say?”

“No, Chetan. I need your help. Kalpana is trying to kill me. Her brother and my parents are in it as well. I just managed to escape and come here.”

You scratched your brow, waved me in, and shut the door. “What are you saying, Satya?

“I don’t know, bro,” I said. “I’m confused. I don’t know what to do.”

“Maybe you should talk to someone. Hey, who’s better for that than your best friend?”

I sigh in relief. “I can’t tell you how light I’m feeling right now. You’re the only person that can help me out.”

You took me to your living room and sat on the sofa facing the door. I got nervous that the door was behind me, but I reminded myself that I don’t need to be paranoid.

Before I began my story, you took your phone out of your pocket and texted someone as you said, “I had an important meeting, but I cancelled it. No meeting is bigger than my best friend in need.” You put the phone back into your pocket and scratched your brow again. “I don’t get it, Satya. Kalpana loves you. I’m sure she won’t do anything to harm you. And why would Uncle and Aunty want to kill their only child?”


When I finish telling you everything, you say, “I can’t believe Kalpana would ever think of murdering you.”

“How much time have you spent with her, Chetan? I’ve spent eight years with her. I know her better than you do.”

You shake your head. “You’re right, but why didn’t you let me know earlier? I could have helped you, Satya.”

“Kalpana cut me off from you, Chetan. She deleted my phone contacts and blocked you on social media. When I realised it and asked her about it, she said, ‘He’s become successful. He does not need you now.’ Can you believe it?”

His mouth gaped. “I can’t believe she said that. But I’ve heard it from you, so there is no reason I shouldn’t believe it.”

“Thank you…” I hear a clamour. “Wait… What’s the noise? Who’s coming in? Who have you called?”

You stutter. “N-nothing, Satya.”

The footsteps come closer. You are sweating.

“You treacherous swine!” I pounce on you and manage to land a punch on your face. “You texted them that I have come here?”

I want to kill you, but Manas’s goons catch me from behind and pull me back on the couch. I can do nothing but shout at you, “You’ve betrayed me. Everyone has abandoned me. It’s better to die than live this miserable life. Kill me! KILL ME!”

“We’re not trying to kill you, Satya,” you say. “We are helping you. Trust me. You need it.”

“This is your help? Your help is worse than death,” I scream. Manas and his goons overwhelm me. I am burning with rage as they jab something on my shoulder. My vision blurs. I…am…dying!

← Part Two 

Part Four →

नेपालीहरूलाई बोल्न रोक लगाइएको साङ्केतिक चित्र

बोल्न पाइन्छ ?

बोल्नलाई बोल्न त पाइन्छ
बोल्ने पनि तरिका चाहिन्छ


स्वप्न सुमन र अभिज्ञा घिमिरेको गीत सुन्दै फेसबुक स्क्रोल गर्दै थिएँ । समाचार देखियो – रवि लामिछानेलाई समर्थन गर्दै प्रधानमन्त्रीको आलोचना गरेको भन्दै एक महिला पक्राउ । अस्तितिर दिलभूषण पाठकलाई हिल्टन होटलका बारेमा समाचार बनाएपछि पक्राउ गरेको खबर आएको थियो । अलि अघि सिधाकुराले मुद्दा मामिलामा हुने लेनदेनको विषयमा सार्वजनिक गरेको डार्क फाइल्स अदालतको अनादर गरेको भन्दै उक्त सामग्री हटाउन लगाइएको थियो । पछि सामग्री नै फेक हो भनेर तीनजनालाई कारबाही भएको थियो । अझै अगाडि सरकारले सामाजिक सद्भाव बिगारेको भन्दै टिकटकलाई प्रतिबन्ध गरेको थियो । झन्डै एक वर्षपछि प्रतिबन्ध फुकुवा भयो ।

यी घटनाहरू केलाउँदा लोकतन्त्र, गणतन्त्रमा बोल्न पाइन्छ भन्नेहरू अहिले आफैँ विरोधको अवाज बन्द गर्न तल्लीन देखिन्छन् । अभिव्यक्तिको स्वतन्त्रता संविधानको धारा १७ द्वारा प्रदत्त अधिकार हो । यसले कुनै विचारलाई निषेध गर्न नपाइने व्यवस्था गरेको छ । त्यस्तै, धारा १९ ले कुनै प्रसारण माध्यममा प्रकाशित सामग्रीकै कारण कसैलाई पक्राउ नगरिने कुरा सुनिश्चित छ ।

तर संविधानले नै सार्वभौमसत्ता र अखण्डताको रक्षा, व्यक्तिगत गोपनीयता र मर्यादाको सम्मानजस्ता विषयमा मनासिब प्रतिबन्ध लगाउन पाइने व्यवस्था पनि गरेको छ । र यसकै दुरुपयोग गरेर सत्ता र सत्ताको नजिक हुनेले आफ्ना विरोधमा आउने आवाज दबाउन थालेका छन् । अझ अनलाइनमा प्रकाशन हुने सामग्रीको विषयमा कानूनमा भएको लुपहोल प्रयोग गरेर दु:ख पनि बढी नै दिन थालेका छन् ।

यस्तो किन हुन्छ ? स्वतन्त्रता सङ्ग्राम कथामा लेखेको छु :

सत्ता सधैँ प्रशंसाको भोको हुन्छ । थोरै आलोचना पनि उसलाई बिझ्छ ।

तर आलोचना सहन नसक्ने सत्ताधारीलाई ठीक पार्ने ब्रह्मास्त्र खरो आलोचना नै हो । ब्रायन मार्टिन पुस्तक इन्फर्मेसन लिबरेसनमा लेख्छन्,

“आलोचना गर्दा निष्कर्ष दिने भन्दा पनि तथ्यहरू प्रस्तुत गरिदिनुस् । सही गलतको निर्णय पाठक/श्रोताले गर्नेछन् ।”

उनी थप्छन्,

“कुनै नेताले भ्रष्टाचारी हो भन्नुभन्दा उसलाई यो कम्पनीले यति रकम बुझायो भनिदिनुस् ।”

“जुन कुरा भन्नुहुन्छ त्यसको ठोस प्रमाण सङ्कलन गर्नुस् अनि आफ्ना साथीभाइ र अरूहरूलाई पठाउनुस् ।”

अहिलेको परिस्थितिमा बोल्न गाह्रो छ । बोल्न भने छाडिन्न । त्यसैले जे बोलिन्छ, तथ्य सहित बोल्नुपर्ने छ । र त :

बोल्नलाई बोल्न त पाइन्छ
बोल्ने पनि तरिका चाहिन्छ

An illustration of Jack by Andrés Vera Martínez

Jack—the Fallen Angel in Lord of the Flies

Jack Merridew, interestingly the only character whose full name is known, enters Lord of the Flies as the confident leader of the boys’ choir, dressed in a black cloak and marching with military precision. Over the course of the novel, he transforms into a violent, primal figure driven by the lust for power and blood. Jack is not merely a character—he is a fallen angel, an embodiment of humanity’s latent savagery, a warning against the fragility of civilization.

An illustration of Jack by Andrés Vera Martínez
Illustration of Jack by Andrés Vera Martínez

1. From Choirboy to Tyrant

Jack begins the novel with an external aura of authority and order:

“I ought to be chief,” said Jack with simple arrogance, “because I’m chapter chorister and head boy.”

— Chapter 1

Even Golding acknowledges that Jack was “the most obvious” leader:

This toy of voting was almost as pleasing as the conch. Jack started to protest but the clamour changed from the general wish for a chief to an election by acclaim of Ralph himself. None of the boys could have found good reason for this; what intelligence has been shown was traceable to Piggy while the most obvious leader was Jack.

— Chapter 1 (Page 19)

However, when Ralph is chosen leader, Jack’s ego is wounded, setting the stage for his eventual rebellion. But he still bonds with Ralph, respects the rules, and tries to work within the system:

“We’ve got to have rules and obey them. After all, we’re not savages.”

— Chapter 2

Moreover, in the early chapters, Jack sees providing meat as his way of being useful, of proving his worth in the group’s survival. Ralph wants to build shelters and keep the signal fire going; Jack wants to feed people. In this sense, he is trying to take on responsibility. Jack is embarrassed by his inability to kill the pig:

“Next time—!” he snatched his knife out of the sheath and slammed it into a tree trunk. “I’ll get the pig next time!”

— Chapter 1

Although this moment could be interpreted as the beginning of his bloodthirst, he is actually frustrated by his inability to help. The failure, however, humiliates him. His obsession with hunting begins as a means to redeem that failure. By Chapter 4, he paints his face with clay and charcoal—his first literal mask—and undergoes a symbolic transformation:

“The mask was a thing on its own, behind which Jack hid, liberated from shame and self-consciousness.”

When Jack’s boys fail to keep the fire and Ralph scolds Jack, tensions boil over. Piggy supports Ralph, and Jack lashes out—not at Ralph, but at Piggy, the voice of reason:

“You didn’t ought to have let that fire out. You said you’d keep the smoke going—”
Jack smacked Piggy’s head. Piggy’s glasses flew off and tinkled on the rocks.

One lens cracks. This is the first physical blow to Piggy’s only tool of vision—both literal sight and symbolic insight.

Almost midway through the novel, Jack breaks from the group.

“Bollocks to the rules! We’re strong—we hunt!”

By the end of the novel, Jack leads a tribe that worships the “Beast,” carries out ritualistic killings, and hunts Ralph. His descent is complete: he is no longer a boy pretending to be a leader; he is a savage warlord.

2. The Fallen Angel

Jack Merridew is often symbolised as the representation of savagery, primal instincts, and the beast within. He also shows how being religious is different from being moral or restrained.

Introduced not just as a boy, but as the leader of the choir, wearing a black cloak and cap badge—symbols often associated with religious tradition and discipline, Jack brings some hope in time of despair. In mid-20th-century Britain, choirs were typically linked to churches or religious schools, and the role of “chapter chorister” implies Jack’s background in spiritual guidance and moral order.

Golding uses this background to set up a powerful irony: the boy who should represent moral uprightness and Christian values becomes the architect of ritualistic violence. His descent from singing hymns to leading blood-chants like: “Kill the beast! Cut his throat! Spill his blood!” mirrors a fall from grace.

In this light, Jack resembles a Lucifer figure: once noble but corrupted by pride and the lust for power. The religious symbolism is reversed—what should be holy becomes savage, and the choir turns into a tribe of masked hunters. It is a chilling metaphor for how easily institutional morality can collapse under pressure.

3. Relationship with Other Characters

With Ralph

Initially rivals, Ralph and Jack represent clashing worldviews. Ralph values cooperation; Jack craves dominance. Their power struggle reflects the conflict between rule of law and anarchy.

“They hate you, Ralph. They’re going to do you.”

– Samneric (Chapter 12)

With Piggy

Jack mocks Piggy from the start. Piggy’s intellect threatens him, and his physical weakness makes him an easy target.

“Shut up, Fatty!”

– Chapter 1

Piggy is symbolic of logic and reason, which Jack rejects entirely.

With Simon

Though Jack never directly harms Simon, his culture of fear and frenzy enables Simon’s murder. The tribal dance that kills Simon is a product of Jack’s ideology.

With Roger

Jack unleashes Roger’s darker instincts. Roger’s sadism grows under Jack’s rule, suggesting Jack’s ability to empower cruelty in others.

“Roger sharpened a stick at both ends.”

– Chapter 12

Jack doesn’t just fall into savagery; he becomes its architect.

4. The Tribal Leader

As the leader of the tribe that is fearful of the unknown, Jack provides certainty. He knows what to do and how to do it. He exhibits traits of narcissism as he constantly craves for attention and control. His lack and empathy and enjoyment in others’ pain represents psychopathy. Even when frightened, he blames the beast for his fears and develops rituals around them. Moreover, he uses mob mentality to justify violence.

5. Leadership Style: Domination over Democracy

Jack’s leadership contrasts starkly with Ralph’s. Whereas Ralph’s governance is based on election and consent, assemblies, and free speech, Jack rules with command and fear. He prioritises hunting and pleasure over Ralph’s desire for rescue and civilisation.

Furthermore, Jack does not appeal to reason but to emotion and instinct—especially fear. He capitalizes on the boys’ growing belief in the Beast to consolidate power.

“The conch doesn’t count at this end of the island—”

Chapter 9

This rejection of symbols of order marks the collapse of rational governance under Jack’s rule.

In the end, Ralph weeps “for the end of innocence.” Jack, in contrast, shows no remorse. Even when rescued, he stays silent, perhaps shocked.

Conclusion: Jack as the Shadow of Humanity

Jack is not a demon; he is disturbingly human. Golding uses him to show how quickly civilization can collapse and how easily people—especially children—can be seduced by power, fear, and groupthink. As a fallen angel, Jack demonstrates how religion fails in the face of survivalism and fear. If Ralph is the tragic hero, Jack is the warning: that within every society lies the potential for tyranny, and within every person, the capacity for evil.

Satya is scared because Kalpana conspires to kill him

Satya – Part Two: She Conspires to Kill Me

Kalpana has conspired to kill me, and her brother, Manas, is her major partner in the conspiracy. I’m sure of it because I heard them plotting against me. We had been to Manas’s place because of some festival (I don’t remember what it was). I woke up in the middle of the night to find that Kalpana was not sleeping beside me. I heard some murmur from another room. The siblings were talking about something. I went closer to the wall and then listened to their conversation.

“Satya has not been treating me well,” Kalpana sighed. “I don’t want to, but I have to stay with him.”

“No one is forcing you to live with him, Kalpana. You don’t deserve him! How many times have I told you that he has a darkness in his heart and that he’ll turn your life into hell? Yet, you don’t want to leave him?”

“Yes, I was wrong. You always said love had blinded me. How did I use to reply? Better be blinded by love than see the things that do not exist.” She sighed. “You were right, Manas. You read his personality better than I ever did.”

“So, what’s stopping you from leaving him? I’ll help you prepare the divorce files. Get him to sign them, and you’ll be free.”

“Satya will never sign those papers.” Kalpana sighed. “He will never let me go away from his life.”

“Is there no other way?”

“Okay. I’ll help you.”

My heart pounded fast. I was drenched in sweat. Should I run away? How? I had to go through Manas’s room. They would not leave me. Would they come to me after their conversation ended? The thought took my sleep away.

Later, when Kalpana came in, I lay in the bed and pretended to sleep. I had hoped that she would complete the job there, but she held my hand. I froze. Her touch was gentle, but my skin crawled. Was this tenderness—or was it the calm before the kill?

“I’ll never fall into her trap,” I promised myself.


But I failed to keep my promise. This evening, I was reading an article about a company when Manas entered my room. He shouted, “What are you doing?”

I turned my laptop towards him and said, “I’m looking for a job.”

“Really? You don’t remember what you did to Kalpana? How can you remain this calm after making her cry?”

Except for that one day—the one I already told you about—I can’t recall any other fight with her. But maybe we did. Maybe it slipped through the cracks of my memory. Or maybe it never happened at all. But maybe we did fight. I remember saying, “You and your brother want to kill me, and I can’t trust you.” But I don’t remember when and where I said that. Was it a dream? Or did it happen in real? What was wrong with it, though? It was the truth. Their truth!

“You don’t need to hide anything from me, Manas.” I said, “I know what you intend to do.”

Manas hesitated for a moment. Then he picked up the laptop and hurled it at me. I dodged it, but he kept throwing pens, notebooks, and bowls that were on the table. Luckily, nothing hit me. I pushed him hard and ran away. His white-clothed goons tried catching me, but I was too swift for them. Kalpana, Dad and Mom also tried stopping me. I flashed past them, too.

I ran with no plan, no destination—just away from the house, away from the trap. But where could I run when my own family was hunting me?

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A symbolic image of justice in Nepal under the control of shadowy figures while the others are in trouble

Crisis of Justice in Nepal: Who Gets It and Who Doesn’t

Constitution Study #8: An analysis of eroding faith on justice in Nepal

Political Meddling and Public Distrust in Justice

In recent years, public confidence in Nepal’s judiciary has eroded to alarming levels. From controversial rulings to suspected backdoor deals, the very institution meant to safeguard fairness and the rule of law now finds itself entangled in political webs.

Recent Examples of Political Interference:

  • Attempt of Impeachment against Chief Justice Sushila Karki (2017): On April 30, 2017, 239 Members of Parliament (MPs) filed the impeachment motion against Karki. It was the first time any Chief Justice had faced impeachment. The then Judge of the Supreme Court Cholendra Shamsher Rana ruled against the move on May 5 and reinstated Karki.
  • Chief Justice Cholendra Shamsher Rana’s Suspension (2022): Rana faced impeachment proceedings not solely due to his alleged misconduct, but also due to political realignments. Reports suggested political parties coordinated the move when he resisted some executive appointments—blurring the lines between accountability and retaliation.
  • Impunity in Corruption Cases: Several politicians implicated in high-profile scams (e.g., the Lalita Niwas land grab, gold smuggling cases, and fake Bhutanese refugee scandal) have either evaded prosecution or benefited from procedural delays. Courts appear reluctant to confront power centers.
  • Selective Enforcement: Political opponents often face swift charges, while ruling party members are granted procedural leniency, bail, or silence from investigative agencies.

The judiciary’s proximity to party interests has created a justice system that feels arbitrary, inconsistent, and aligned with power rather than principle. This has weakened the moral authority of the courts and shaken citizens’ belief in equal justice.

What Does the Constitution Say?

Despite the current realities, the Constitution provides a comprehensive framework for justice in Nepal:

Article 20: Right to Justice

  • Guarantees the right to fair trial, legal counsel, and presumption of innocence.
  • Emphasizes judicial independence and impartiality.

Article 21: Rights of Crime Victims

  • Ensures victims’ rights to information, participation, compensation, and dignified treatment.

Article 42: Right to Social Justice

  • Mandates proportional inclusion of women, Dalits, Adivasis, Madhesis, Muslims, backward regions, and gender minorities in state bodies.

The Constitution, on paper, envisions justice not only as due process in courts but as a tool of social transformation. Justice in Nepal is not just about being heard—it’s about being seen, represented, and uplifted.

Loopholes That Enable Political Influence

While the Constitution upholds judicial independence in principle, several weaknesses open the door for manipulation:

  1. Judicial Council Composition (Article 153):
    • The Chief Justice heads the Council, but its members include a minister, the senior-most justice of the Supreme Court, a nominee of the President (on executive advice), and a senior advocate recommended by Nepal Bar Association.
    • The fact that three of five members are directly affiliated to politics (and there is a high possibility of the Chief Justice and the Judge to be politically oriented as well) allows ruling parties to influence judge appointments, transfers, and promotions.
  2. Impeachment as a Political Tool (Article 101):
    • Judges can be impeached by a fourth of Parliament members. While this ensures accountability, it can also be abused as a weapon by political factions.
  3. Delay in Judicial Appointments:
    • The executive has frequently delayed nominations to influence court compositions during key cases.
  4. No Constitutional Limit on Interim Orders:
    • Frequent, ambiguous interim orders from courts create a perception of tactical favoritism, especially when sensitive political or corruption cases are involved.

Why People Are Losing Faith

The erosion of judicial credibility isn’t merely procedural—it’s deeply emotional and experiential. People lose faith when:

  • Cases drag on for years without resolution.
  • Judges with known political leanings preside over politically sensitive cases.
  • Victims of caste-based violence or rape fail to get justice while perpetrators are shielded by local or national politicians.
  • Legal aid remains inaccessible for those who can’t afford it, making justice a privilege for the rich.

In Fiscal Year 2022/23, Nepal scored 0.52 in the Rule of Law Index—barely halfway to an ideal system. That doesn’t mean there is no justice in Nepal. It means that the law works—sometimes. For some. But for millions of Nepalis, especially those from rural, Dalit, and indigenous communities, it works slowly, selectively, or not at all. Surveys and government reports suggest these groups rarely seek legal redress unless absolutely necessary—and when they do, they often feel unheard, humiliated, or dismissed.

The Path Forward: Reclaiming Justice

Justice in Nepal can be saved, but only through urgent reforms rooted in transparency, inclusivity, and courage.

Suggested Reforms

  1. Revamp the Judicial Council: Exclude executive members; ensure the Council is independent with balanced representation from civil society, bar associations, and retired justices.
  2. Transparent Appointment Processes: Publish criteria and reasoning for judicial nominations, transfers, and promotions.
  3. Strengthen Legal Aid: Expand the budget and outreach of legal aid centers, particularly in marginalized and remote areas.
  4. Language and Accessibility Reform: Provide translation and legal materials in local languages; make courtrooms less intimidating for laypeople.
  5. Empower Local Justice Systems: Incorporate indigenous dispute resolution mechanisms under constitutional safeguards to serve communities historically left behind.
  6. Establish Independent Judicial Oversight: Create an autonomous ethics commission for judges to investigate misconduct separate from parliamentary impeachment.

Conclusion: A Constitution is Only as Strong as Its Execution

The Constitution of Nepal speaks eloquently of justice—legal and social, personal and collective. But when laws are manipulated and courts become extensions of political games, the promise becomes a lie.

Justice must be rebuilt—not through slogans or courtroom formalities, but by restoring dignity to the powerless, accountability to the powerful, and trust to the people. Without that, justice in Nepal will remain, tragically, a word in a book few can afford to believe in.

A cartoon-style image of a man using ChatGPT

10 Genius Ways to Use ChatGPT for Better Studying in 2025

In the age of digital tools, studying doesn’t have to be a solitary or linear journey. I discovered that ChatGPT, when used intentionally, can be more than just a chatbot—it can be a research assistant, writing coach, debate partner, and creative collaborator. This article is a reflection of how I have used ChatGPT to deepen my understanding, create content, and enhance productivity. Whether you’re a student, a civil servant, or a lifelong learner, here’s how you can make the most of it.

1. Treat It Like a Study Partner, Not Just a Search Engine

Unlike a search engine that throws links at you, ChatGPT allows conversation. You can ask follow-up questions, challenge the answers, and request alternative viewpoints.

Example from my experience:
While studying the Constitution of Nepal, I asked ChatGPT to interpret specific articles, compare them with foreign constitutions, and simulate hypothetical legal scenarios. It helped me compare Nepal’s constitutional practice with that of the USA, India, the UK, Germany, and so on.

A chart comparing legislative procedures produced by ChatGPT
A chart comparing legislative procedures in Nepal, India, the UK and the USA as produced by ChatGPT

This helped me go beyond rote reading. And that increased level of understanding has shaped the ongoing Constitution Study series.

2. Refine Your Writing With Real-Time Feedback

If you write stories, academic posts, or blog articles, ChatGPT can act as an editor. I often begin with a rough draft and then ask it to check tone, grammar, or structure. I can also ask for alternative phrasings or expand ideas.

Example:
For my story Satya, I asked for improvements from ChatGPT. It helped me refine the symbolism and themes, especially when dealing with the narrator’s psychology.

A screenshot showing ChatGPT's suggestion for Satya
ChatGPT’s suggestion for Satya. Some of them made it to the final version while some didn’t

You should be careful, however, not to be overwhelmed by ChatGPT’s suggestions. Sometimes, they don’t fit the tone, and sometimes they are just useless. But the recommendations can certainly help you visualise your concepts better.

3. Simulate Debates and Perspectives

One of ChatGPT’s most powerful features is its ability to represent multiple sides of an argument. This is immensely useful in subjects like political science, international relations, or philosophy.

Tip:
Ask it to argue for and against a particular policy, like federalism in Nepal, whether monarchy or republic is suitable for Nepal, or present constructivist vs. realist views on international diplomacy. Then, synthesize your own viewpoint.

4. Use It for Coding and Technical Support

I’ve used ChatGPT to learn Python programming, debug code, and explore data handling methods. It explains concepts in plain language and offers code snippets on the spot.

Example:
While working on a data analysis in Python, I asked it to refine my codes for cleaner and faster implementation, helping me learn best practices. ChatGPT to

5. Clarify and Localize Concepts

Nepali terms, cultural expressions, and legal nuances often get misunderstood or mistranslated. ChatGPT becomes more helpful when you teach it your context.

Tip:
Correct its mistakes and it learns in-session. I’ve corrected it on Nepali vocabulary several times and clarified governance facts, like Bagmati being the most populous province.

6. Create Custom Learning Plans and Schedules

You can ask ChatGPT to break down complex topics into weekly schedules. I did this when I planned a Constitution Study series and a weekly blog publishing schedule.

Try asking:
“Break down macroeconomics into a 4-week self-study plan with topics, readings, and self-tests.”

7. Get Visual Aids and Infographics

Sometimes, visual explanation helps. I’ve used ChatGPT to generate tables, flowcharts, and even illustrations for my blog posts. It can create diagrams for procurement processes, comparative tables for political systems, or thematic maps for storytelling.

An infographic produced by ChatGPT
An infographic on Federal, Provincial, and Local Levels produced by ChatGPT

ChatGPT-produced infographics, however, not perfect (as shown in the figure above) and you should be cautious of using them in academic settings.

8. Challenge It—That’s When It Gets Better

Despite its capabilities, ChatGPT still hallucinates. It blurts out fictional and illogical data, sometimes even when you give extensive sources. The best use of ChatGPT comes when you challenge it: point out factual inaccuracies, ask for citations, or request formal academic formatting. This pushes the AI to deliver more rigorous responses.

Tip:
Use follow-up prompts like:

  • “Cite a source for this.”
  • “Explain this in formal language with references.”
  • “Rephrase for professional tone.”

9. Use It to Overcome Mental Blocks

Writing and studying often come with emotional barriers—self-doubt, anger, or burnout. I’ve used ChatGPT to reflect on personal struggles, explore my spiritual experiences, or just break through writer’s block with a creative prompt.

Bonus use:
Ask: “Give me a 5-minute mindfulness practice before writing.” Or: “Help me reframe my frustration into motivation.”

10. Get the Best of ChatGPT by using Projects

If you have a serious, recurring topic, use the Projects on ChatGPT. I have several projects, for example, Constitution Study, Stories, PSC, and so on which have helped me organise my conversations with ChatGPT into your broader system. An advantage of Project is that you can upload up to 20 related files and add custom instructions turning it into your personal mini GPT.

  • A screenshot showing some Projects in ChatGPT
  • A screenshot showing files uploaded to a ChatGPT project
  • A screenshot showing custom instructions in a ChatGPT project.

Conclusion

ChatGPT isn’t perfect, and it shouldn’t be your only source of truth. But with critical thinking and intentional use, it can become your best academic collaborator. The key is to guide it with your mind, challenge it with your curiosity, and use it to explore, not just answer.

An image showing two Jholes burdened by indifferent leadership and ideologies

The Dangers of Jhole Politics in Nepal and Why We Should Avoid It

In a recent social media post, Prime Minister K.P. Sharma Oli shared an image boldly stating, I am a Jhole). It was a provocative twist on a term repeatedly used to mock political sycophants — the Jhole, those who carry their leaders’ ideological and literal bags with unquestioning loyalty. By embracing the label, Oli turned it on its head, drawing parallels to Tyrion Lannister’s iconic line from Game of Thrones:

“Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armour, and it can never be used to hurt you.”

Psychologically, it was a masterstroke. What had once been a symbol of ridicule is now recast as a badge of honour. It arms party cadres with moral confidence and a ready-made justification for loyalty. It strengthens in-group identity and inoculates against public criticism. In a time of waning ideological clarity and rising cynicism, such reaffirmation is emotionally powerful.

But this reframing comes at a steep cost.

The idea of being a Jhole contradicts the very essence of democratic citizenship. Nepal is at a juncture where political awakening, not blind allegiance, is the need of the hour. When being a Jhole becomes aspirational, it signals a dangerous retreat from critical engagement. It celebrates hierarchy over participation, obedience over dialogue, and ideology over truth.

In a country reeling from institutional decay, corruption, and disillusionment with mainstream politics, embracing the Jhole identity is not brave — it is escapist. A true patriot cannot afford to be a bag carrier of any leader or party. We must ask questions, demand accountability, and have the courage to stand apart when needed. Ideological loyalty should come from understanding and belief, not from submission.

Ironically, the moment a leader wears the insult as a crown is also the moment the rest of the party members boldly follow suit. By accepting the term Jhole, they normalise a culture where subservience is rewarded and independent thought is suspect. They cultivate an indifferent leadership that does not care about the problems ordinary citizens face.

This is not a personal attack on the Prime Minister but a plea to every Nepali:

Let us not be flattered into submission. We must be more than Jholes — we must be citizens.

In a democracy, the highest duty is not to follow but to question. That is the only way we break the chain of servitude.


Disclaimer: This piece reflects critical reflection on public discourse and is intended to encourage democratic engagement, not to target any individual personally.

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